hummm

well my first "real" blog, I've never really been the kind of person to keep a diary, but as I'm getting older, and i just can't seem to remember one day to the next anymore, i thought I'd give this a go!

i mean how hard can it be?

first I'll go thru all the crappy things in my life, then I'll continue with the better stuff...

so here we go

my mom has cancer, again for the second time in 5 years, it wasn't really a shock, i just kind of knew already when she told me, she'd had a heart attack at Christmas, which she didn't tell me about till afterwards, she didn't want to worry me! no, hurting my feelings was SO much better! but that's just me being a bitch, she was only trying to do whats right i guess..

my daughters teacher hates me, not just a little bit, i know my daughter is not the easiest child in the world, and I'm not going to make excuses for that, but the jumped up little shit keeps calling social services, i mean, Leila, (the daughter in question) is always hungry, medically she is fine, she's just hungry, she's not malnourished, she's not underweight, but the school caught her eating someone Else's lunch from their lunch box, i know it's wrong, she knows its wrong, but is that a reason to call the social? the next week, she does the same thing again, I'm not trying to shift the blame here, but if the school know she is likely to do it, why not watch her when she walks past the trolley with the lunch boxes on??!?

My eldest daughter Kira, she is a monster child, really she is, i love her to bits, but wow she is hard work.

my house is a dump, the pipes burst for no reason, the dog pisses everywhere, I'm constantly arguing with my husband, oh yeah... and i have polycystic kidney disease, and 19% kidney function. i get UTI's every other week and i'm in constant pain

well thats the crap out of the way,

the good bits...

haha... this is harder than moaning...

erm...

i love my kids and husband so so much :D

erm...

my kidney function could be worse... haha

erm... yes...

i'll do some good stuff when i can think of some!